“Daddy, your eyes are bleeding!”-Cydney looking at my bloodshot eyes.
I haven’t been on my game like I usually am as far as posting daily. I’ve been incredibly tired. There’s been a lot going on and its got me worn out. Summertime is in full swing here which means that children are looking to be entertained around the clock. My mom has been on chemotherapy for the last week and due to its nature, she has had a few adverse effects which are expected. She’s still trooping along, but she requires a lot of rest. With that said, Cydney and my nephew wake up bright eyed and its on.
There’s nothing wrong with that. Children love to play, and something about the warm weather brings out the animal that’s been in hibernation during the winter. I get it. I’m just tired as all hell. Between trying to figure my own life out, find work, the little things to make a little money until I’m employed again, and other things I’m spent. Actually, I don’t get around to doing but so much these last few days. Waking up at 5:45 AM has become 7:15-ish and going to bed around 4:30 AM as opposed to 2 (Not to mention out of restlessness going to bed at 7:30 and waking up at 9 AM one night).
I make attempts to be productive during my twenty hours I’m up every day. Thirteen of them is with children being up during prime productivity hours. Whenever I settle down to write a post or apply to something, someone comes in with a question or is climbing on me (at this very moment, I’m entertaining questions about whether or not Voodoo dolls are real, my thoughts on The Shredder, and a toddler jumping across my torso and not quite clearing it so her heels land on my abdomen). The other time is somewhere between doing research, submitting some kind of resume, and trying to get some rest.
I’m sure its stress, fatigue, and spiritual unrest. The answer is to find balance. I usually try to balance others out and don’t really do well doing it on my own. I think that may be the part of me that misses my partner because a good one forces you to do so. However, things gotta get done. I think taking time to rest and relax requires just as much discipline as it takes to go to the gym daily, maintain a decent diet, or to not procrastinate. It’s one of the most important parts of time management-rest. Somewhere within the next day or two I’m gonna log off and get one of those good twelve hour days of sleep. Until then, I need to change a pull up, get people dressed, do hair, take these kids to the park, and record some reference vocals for my nephew to learn (he wants to rap now).
Single Dadventures 